Saturday morning was spent with some like minded people who wished to increase their positivity towards life....
As you would expect from me, my mind has been whirring ever since. I have always tried to be a positive person, but felt as though life had sucked the plus out of my body, leaving me drained and dull (this is totally separate from my M.E.). I have a positive pact with Tracey, and given what life has thrown at us, we always try to react with a can-do attitude. But, sometimes just saying the words don't automatically make it happen. It's learning to practise Positivity, balancing the Ying and the Yang, because they have to co-exist in order to satisfy the balance of life energy.
I hadn't recognised my positive habits, because if I am honest with myself, I don't really have any. Life is hard, but losing ownership of myself, makes the change near impossible to make. Looking at myself, rose glasses removed, with honesty rather than criticism, I can look to see what I need to do in order to create and practise positivity......
So... how can I start to influence my life and open my mind to setting about a positive future with a fully functioning attitude!
I think it mainly comes down to happiness, appreciating the simple things in life. A child's smile, a nice compliment, a cuddle with a dog. Those things which don't require money, effort, they are simply perfect moments, and we can be responsible for creating perfect moments, by being mindful of them, both for ourselves and others.
I don't think straight a lot of the time. Some of it is brain fog, but my brain has lost some of it's elasticity, its strength. I need to build it back up again. After a time of hibernation it becomes easier to allow those who love me to look after me and I stop looking after myself however, I need to take ownership of me. Unfortunately the way that I have done things bit by bit, has damaged my self worth, esteem, and my confidence has taken a battering and my shell lacks soul.
My brain lacks the umph it once had, that's the only way to explain it really. So, nothing changes, if nothing changes. Lorna talked about taking responsibility for the life that we have. If it's not what we want and makes us happy then we can make change ask for help and guidance from my angels and start working towards positivity..
Reading again the handout Lorna kindly gave to us. There are several area's that I need to address. No time like the present. The first one is to look after myself, to give care to myself. It's simple things that make the difference. Wearing nice clean clothes, brushing my hair, painting my nails. Be bothered rather than not.
Next definitely has to be "you are what you eat or drink". I added the last bit. I am starting to make healthy changes and I need to just buckle down and get at it. I can't expect to get the results if I am not putting in the effort, or communicating my intentions. I need to find my inner voice and slap her just a little. I can't moan, if I'm not putting in the work.
I also need to declutter my life. I have 'stuff' too much 'stuff' that I don't need and other stuff that just doesn't have a home. If my life is cluttered, so is my brain and I need life to be clean, tidy and straight forward. Again, these are changes that I can implement. Talk the talk and walk the walk.
I know that there are things beyond my control, such as my illness and my financial situation. But I can make the most of the time that I am given with a positive head in place.
My writing is so important to me, well if it is then I should be doing it. The TV goes on and suddenly I'm absorbed, not because what I'm watching is that fascinating (Real Housewives excluded), but the effort to do something is lacking, again, that comes around to not caring enough about myself to do something about it.
So, I am aiming for balance in my life, to energise the ying and the yang. To see the happy things, bring my positive self to the table, get her dressed and sparkling and bounce back to being the Jo I used to be.
