Enlightment

The last 48 hours have been a bit enlightening.  Perhaps I might be the last to catch on,but eventually I do.  I have not been able to get a grasp on why I've been so exhausted and so unwell for the past few weeks.  It's not like I have been doing very much really!  OK, so let me back the gravy train up & look at it again.

Mondays, I've been doing/meeting/getting together and generally been active.  Tuesdays has been Slimming World and socialising with Rachael, Wednesdays has been 2 hour intensive sewing club and socialising with Tracey and the ladies afterwards.  Thursdays have normally been doing something in the morning before heading off to Art Club at lunchtime. Fridays I sleep, Saturdays I try to sleep/surface, Sundays are normally a right-off.

I can't carry on like this at all.  So it's time to really concentrate on my hibernation tactics.  If people want to see me for now they are going to have to come here!  I am going to get my sanctuary ready for all my wonderful craft projects that I've got that I'm going to do & those that I have yet to learn.  I am going to get my laptop in the bedroom, so that I can blog, I've got my TV, magazines, DVD's, Kindle and the fulfilment of an old but still very real dream to write and publish a book of fiction.

So I've got choices to make, decisions ahead.  I can either carry on making myself miserable and not having enough energy to last me through the week, or I can cut back now and make the best of what I have and gradually as I gain strength I can add more back in.  But firstly it needs to be stripped back to the basics and start all over again - the beginning.  I'm not looking at it as failure, merely a learning curve that eventually this thick head of mine will learn how to manage my condition so that I can recover!!!!!